"Dear Darrin,

Please don't blame yourself for this, it's always been within me as a beast I held at bay. I have no strength to fight it any more. Perhaps that shelter of love you offered all these years was more a mask I hid myself behind. In these last few weeks I caught a glimpse of what I was--and what I'm surely not--in a mirror of the ocean. Unmasked, in horror to see myself there cringing like a snail within its shell.

I'm so sorry. I'll love you always.

Audrey"