I have put The Watchmaker CD in, played the intro, and pulled it out again. I’ve done this twice already and there’s no more getting around it: I’m scared.
As anxious as I am to get started, the first thing that comes to mind is that I left my protagonist facing some ugly creatures on a street in Silent Hill 2 quite a while ago and am not quite up to the inevitable confrontation yet. Maybe because I have the same fights to deal with in reality lately (oh, my kingdom for a big stick!) or maybe I remember the rush, the palpitations, the half-breathes taken while one is totally involved in action story.
Though Watchmaker seems rather tame, I’m still hesitant. And, I have Silent Hill 3 and Scratches to go through once I’m ready to face these unreal antagonists.
Then maybe I can move on to overcome my more natural enemies. Once I get up the courage to step back into that street, build up confidence, smash some heads, let out the reactionary impulses and then, settle back into my normal, reasonable, compromising self. But first, the courage.
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