SELF ANALYSIS: Bummer

In a minute I’ll post about a dream I had last night that together with these two happenings below provide the daily insight, for that is what each day brings: a clue to solve the puzzle presented us by life.

In the midst of trying to fit in with the rest of the inhabitants of this world I am discovering some things that could be good or could be not so good and need to change and change is what I’m seeking.  In an e-mail, a friend providing a rush letter of recommendation mentioned this:  With you, there is so much that could be said and so many identities that could be foregrounded. Now I understand the principle, to gear the letter to the particular job, and this I’ve done often enough myself in a cover letter. But something else is here: the clue.

Yes, that’s me, Jack of all Trades, Master of None.  Now this could be nice, I suppose, in that I’ve many interests, worn many hats–and at my age that’s not too unusual except that one should fit and become a favorite.  But I’m still looking for the purple cloche, the gay red fedora with a pheasant feather, the pillbox, sombrero, babushka, Alaskan windwarmer with fuzzy earflaps, whatever, as these all pile up on the closet shelf.  I’m scattered and each small piece of me, a pound or two at most is all to spare, never gets to know one thing really well.  Focus is not a problem for me, and yet focus is indeed the problem by itself. What is it that I’m best at doing?  What gift given to me can I give back to this world besides shelves and shelves of wine and jelly?

I think I may have done this quiz and posted on it before, but if so, then worse, nothing’s changed:

You’re The Dictionary!
by Merriam-Webster
You’re one of those know-it-all types, with an amazing amount of knowledge at your command. People really enjoy spending time with you in very short spurts, but hanging out with you for a long time tends to bore them. When folks really need an authority to refer to, however, you’re the one they seek. You’re an exceptional speller and very well organized.
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